Accepting is hard...

Accepting that you cannot make everything right in the world let alone your life is tough to swallow. I'm trying not to choke.

Shot a submission for Papercut magazine last Friday. Got everything shot, retouched and submitted the same day before midnight. Usually do not wait till the last minute on this kind of stuff but factors dictated otherwise.

The theme was to base the shoot on a movie scene so I chose Dracula. Had to use only unknown designers clothes or accessories. We showcased an up & coming jewelry designer who also models named Renee Prows. The models I used in the shoot were Renee Prows, Abby White, Lisa Marie Miller, and Amber Everett.

I also shot some top secret dresses from designer Amy Kirchen that will be debuted at NYC Fashion Week in September 2011. I can't wait to show the pics!!! Used models Amber Everett and Lisa Marie Miller for the designs. Shot outside in 105 degrees and somehow the models remained un-melted!!! The designer is in LOVE with one of the pics and just loves the rest!! Leigha Huff did hair and Carly Pundt did makeup on both shoots.

I find out today if Papercut uses any of my submission.

Yesterday I was videoing acting reels for some of the model/actors that I shoot with. They had went to Dallas to "EXPO" and had some interest from VH-1 and agents.

Video: I think I likeeeeee

Just put together a "video movie" of some models I photographed. This project came from boredom and creativity...been kicking the idea around after seeing vids from modeling agencies/photogs. Finally decided to try my hand at editing, etc. The results can be seen to your right in the youtube section. Let me know what you think.

All that and a bag of...

Today has been a typical day of running errands and being mentally numb. I just finished answering emails which is what I'm basing this post on.

I open this email that has about twenty photos attached (including a shot of the models baby) which is great. The text in the email talks about wanting to work with me, etc. Very nice but not very clear what she really wants from me. I email back asking her if she is wanting to hire me and my team. She replies that she basically wants free pics...hello!!!! Unless you are a Kate Moss, Candice Swanepoel or Amber Everett...I has to gets paid!!!

I replied politely that as much as I'd love to photograph people for free that this was my business. I have to make money to live as do the people that are on my team.

Sometimes I wonder if people realize that I have to pay bills too lol.

Anyway, just found out my oldest sister is in the hospital with blockage in the front of her heart. May be making a trip to Ky depending..holding good thoughts and prayers for her.

I'm feeling sick today...

Sunday I had a shoot outdoors all day. It had been raining and kind of cool. Was outside for about 9 hours mainly on the ground.

Shot with 6 models preparing them for an expo in Dallas. Got some good stuff so they should be set.

As soon as it was over and I was driving away, the rain came again. Went for chinese food after but couldn't eat it all..barely ate any.

Monday was an agency shoot and I spent some time again outside. This time it was raining and I was wet. Today I think it's caught up with me. Just feel sick to my stomach and very tired. I just wanna roll up in a ball and sleep...now I just started sneezing.

Today has been the usual with me leaving the house about 9 am and running errands. Nothing to eventful today..just trying to book shoots and pay bills.

I miss NYC so bad. I need to go there soon..random thought as I sit in a Wendy's dining area finishing my lunch.

Started working on some portaiture stuff the other day. I shoot fashion mainly but am wanting to get into celebrity portraits eventually...if I can figure how to post some I will.